Hi modair. welcome back to our community. We are here for you.
There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek.
http://forums.psychcentral.com
Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.