Heroin. I hate stimulants. I do realize that admitting that I am attracted to depressants means that alcohol is a warning sign, and I do view it as a warning sign. But I view it as a warning sign the way I view isolation as a warning sign--something very unhelpful, a sign that I am not coping as well as I would like, and a sign of something that could lead to relapse... But I am not changing my clean date because I isolated. That is how I view the thing with alcohol.

As for my story... my story is hella complicated. Detox 10 times. Rehab twice. Was homeless--all the rest...

Not sure what more about my story you want to know but... just ask. Unfortunately, I dont have much else to do these days.