I am a self-suspected sociopath (and I'm sure, but nobody believes me), but I have sort of sexual orientation issues. Since I was a kid, I've had always find boys as being cute, and at age of 11 I found out I was gay. I am completely ok with that, but for the last two years I have the feeling that I might be heterosexual. At the beginning I was scared, but after I tried to make sex with another boy and I was disgusted, I started to feel I am straight. What makes me still think is that I can't accept that I'm straight, and I look at good-looking men with disgust, yet I still find them prettier than women. Complicated enough, I stare at women although I don't want to. I try to have sexual fantasies with men, but sometimes I turn up to women, and I like it, but I'm kinda frustrated. I call this fear. What sociopathy links here is, since some time I started to think that while having sexual fantasies with women I force myself into the frustration I call fear. Also, I imagine recieving attention from boys, who turn into girls in the fantasies, and sometimes I dream about women, just standing there, or talking... I don't want to complicate things more - the sociopath in me already tried to change the truth - but I want to know if ASPD are having such issues.