I rambled on about the process of hiring a caregiver, and other developments, then T wanted to know if I told my H everything I want to before he dies. I said I can't do that! She encouraged me to hold her hand, close my eyes, and "talk" to him. I did it, and a few tears trickled down. I kept saying I don't want to cry but I do. I had a feeling it was past the time; she let me stay 15 minutes over! I don't know if I can tell my H what I told T. I'm afraid! Anyway, I can't believe I let a few tears come down!!! I felt better after that. It was nice holding her hand for so long too!