No you aren't stupid. I feel like this very often. I am mortified of even a possibility of losing my
Mother and brother. And then I have a daughter and I am not even going there....I am now in a relationship with a nice man and am mortified of losing him. Then I also miss my late grandparents and feel guilty i didn't spend enough time with them ( which isn't even accurate because I did spent a lot of time)

I think it is a bit of OCD and anxiety. Yes talking to someone will help. So please do. But know you aren't stupid at all and many people feel similar to you

hugs

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