Thanks all. Its become increasingly clear that the religion is not realistic for me. I feel it's been so damaging. If there is a God I cant believe he would approve of people or groups that actively hurt people like acoas. Part of me feels a sense of freedom. A sense of harmony and peace for not denying what I feel is truth any longer. But part of me feels sooooo lost. My plans, my goals, my beliefs, my "friends", my community, my sense of belonging... all gone.

I will review some of the links you guys have posted. Thanks.