This Giga! internet is so so slow today..45 bucks/mo !!! I should kill 'em...

Anyhow, unless some doctors put me under the microscope and learn everything about me, I don't think I can take much medical help, I know it could save my other life....

Doctors are treated AS GOD. You can read that on the internet as well. God complex, **** me.

Find good doctors, please. Marketing force, the big pharma, even this place, I heard from somewhere that the finance comes from their money...

Sun's energy, all those particles, they could be my energy source. My survival and this earth's survival, we know the sun dies some time in the future. Do we last till then??

I just keep trying, trying to see what's right in front of me, usually my thought stops there. I struggle seeing the possibility with good outcome vs the reality, the ******/failed reality pushed into my face..

Time to take a break again,,

This may look like way more than an addiction, my rep here, i never cared...what's done is done, i just feel good. we are all **** ups, yes you can deny that.

If you like someone, stay there, wait for them to come back, ,,,

I disappear, and I never come back, 'cos nobody waits that long. It just takes as long as it takes, ,,

My mind wanders, don't mind that.

What a day it was.. I should try to talk to TIME, and see what kinda response I create withing me.

Have a nice day! A DAAAAAY. made up of ...how many miliseconds is that?

ETA: My typical day? This just happend, a big ****ing cicada scared the bejesus outta me, yes, nature loves me so I don't feel so alone.