I placed my first post in the New Members intro section and I would like to follow up here with a brief overall description....

I am a late 50s male who always experienced a deep rooted shame and guilt over my sexuality and being male.
I feel developed over time anxiety and at times extreme panic attacks when I felt emotionally threatened regaining having a penis and having male traits .
These situations almost exclusively occurs in PUBLIC situations where I feel men's penises are criterized/ laughed at/ or discussed in detail. I get a "fight or flight" reaction and want to lash out or just need to leave the room.

No one knows about this except my wife and a few close people..no one would even understand- so this is something very personal keep to myself.
Can ANYONE relate to this?

I will go into more of my background which I am SURE plays a big part of these feelings.
Thanks for listening....Snap309