we remember asking some of the same questions----each of us---
we are coming to realize that we are who we are. each a part of the whole with just as much importance as the other.
why this way to protect self??? don't know. but as we continue on this journey we are beginning to appreciate what each did for "self" so self wouldn't die.

some inside would agree with chucking it--
i don't. i think that taking your time to get to know each part, to give them a voice and let them say what has been soooo locked up for so long is a step to appreciating the whole.

i don't know how long you have been working on this or if you have a T, but the journey is rough and difficult and painful. why take it??? because for us it is what we need to do now for us.

i'm rambling, which is much of what i do. but i'm sitting with you as you ponder and take contemplate the next step.
Prism