I saw my pdoc today. She agrees that I have this disorder, but she can not treat me for it. She said that she would not even pay someone to put me on any sort of anti depressant. Not even a low dose. (My pdoc likes to joke a little) Anyhow, everytime I have taken antidepressents I end up in the hospital with severe mania, hallucinations and delusions and other crazy stuff. She told me to see my obgyn because sometimes birth control can help.