I still am struggling to overcome the fallout of past abuse and it's impacting my ability to be intimate with my current boyfriend. I also really feel the need to be more open with him because our relationship is starting to get much more serious. He knows vaguely about it, but I don't want any secrets going forward.

My problem is that I've never talked about the sexually traumatic experiences to anyone before (not rape, but emotional abuse occuring in a consentual sexual situation). I feel like because we are sexually involved, that will make the conversation even more difficult. I'm afraid it will be awkward, embarrassing, or make him look at me differently. I'm also extremely worried that because it was technically consentual, he will just feel really uncomfortable talking about it and won't understand the damage it caused.

1. Any relateable experiences?
2. Any advice on how to proceed? (even if you can't relate, all opinions are welcome)
3. How vague (or open) should I be about details?