Today we learned that a friend of my 2 sons was killed in Iraq on Sunday the plane he was in was shot down and it took his life ... though we were not very close to him he still was a good friend to our boys. The news has weighed on me heavily all day and still now is heavy. See ..he is in the same branch of Service as my youngest son..who by the way wants to go to Iraq really bad. .. my anxiety is so high today after that news..makes my mind go over to my son.If it is this bad over their friend i am going to be a basketcase if my son gets deployed.
i recently had to drop my dr and therapist because of the cost of treatment and meds..meaning i no longer have anxiety meds- antidepressants etc ...i dont know how i will get through it if my son deploys. .. i am scared to death..i am just going to go crazy. God stop this criminal war we are in! Sons and Daughters - Mothers and Fathers are dying every single day .. i am NOT ok with that.