My break won't start for a few weeks. I've also realized that I compare my T. to some of the more available/emotional T's on here. That's not helping me either. I know what she can't give me but then I know other T's give more. While I've thought about switching T's, I'm not sure I even need "more".

So, I think I won't be able to really think about what I need if I have influences from here and books. I need to decide on my own. Maybe it will help to take a little control of my therapy/life vs feeling like therapy drives me.