I thought so. For years I have tried to work. Its never ended well for me (hospital). I gave hope to many people, telling them it would all be ok.

Recently I was told I definitely should not have children. My entire family and circle of friends agree with this and have gone to great lengths to ensure I do not have children.

Marriage is the next thing... not an option because I cant work. So for starters, I cant afford it. Secondly, that person needs to be my carer also.

I used to be so hopeful. But Im being told over and over that I am far too unstable to ever have the life I wanted, even the a life that I can be content is out of the question.