I'm sorry you are in this state of mind. Being alone is the worst thing in the world when despair sets in. We're all glad you are coming here to express how bad you feel. That recent move probably hasn't helped. At least give yourself some time to adjust to being in a new environment.

The quality of support you can get by phoning crisis lines can vary a real lot. But they are worth giving a try. From where you are located, there is probably more than one number available. I'ld recommend giving them a try. You don't have to be in full blown crisis to have a right to call.

Please consider starting a thread on one of your problems. (At least, start with one.) People here at PC are genuinely interested in hearing what you have going on in your life. You'll get feedback, which can possibly stop you from going around in circles in your head.

You have a right to help when everything just gets too overwhelming. You deserve it as much as anyone else. Don't make some irreversible decision while you are so isolated. Your life can be made less painful, even though that's hard for you to see right now.