Thanks for the welcome. I'm not. Maybe, I should. I've done that a few times, because for a while I just thought it was a problem of motivation. But, I think when I'm better, I'll like to do things I used to more. I used to love doing art. Now I just do it because it's the only thing that makes me feel like a real person. Now it's like I do it compulsively and not in an "I breath art" type of way. In a "I gasp for existence" type of way.

Yesterday, I got excited about getting movie for my mom and sister to watch. I really like doing stuff like that. Creating experiences. I always jot down what makes me excited. "Maybe I should be an event planner," I wrote. But, that's why I also wanted to get into film making. I reached out to two old friends to do some fun amateur stuff, but it didn't really pan out.

I'll start small. Thanks for the hugs