I know this has been a thread before but I wanted to bring this up again.

How difficult is for you to make eye contact during session? I wonder if this is not uncommon? I don't have much problem greeting my T or saying good bye with eye contact but when i'm talking about stuff, or upset, I just stare off to the right, at my hands, at the floor, anywhere but at my T. Occasionally I look up and she's almost bent over trying to catch my eyes. I kinda regret it.

I want to feel like I can look straight at her when I talk about difficult stuff.

I had a particularly self-loathing rant last session and I practically memorized the look of the couch, the floor, my own hands and I desperately needed to connect but couldn't look at T. So I finally did this on my last session: it was a spur of the moment kind of thing. I paused on the way out and looked at her and said, with a kinda joking tone, "I'm gonna look at you for a second, I feel like, I need to practice eye contact." I stopped, kinda bent down (she was sitting) and looked her right in the eye and smiled and said very mindfully, "Hi". She simply smiled back and say "Hi." It was quite simple and brief but it was a very nice moment. Like a hug but visual.

I thanked her and we both kinds half-laughed (whatever that soft giggle/laugh kind a thing is called.)