I understand about the therapist thing. I don't have one. I went to three appointments with one in february, but then stopped seeing her because it seemed pointless and I have nothing to talk about because my life is fine. I don't know why your pdoc doesn't put you on a mood stabilizer?

Oh, and please don't take your entire bottle of medication! If you lived, you don't want to wind up a vegetable or something.

If you really, truly feel suicidal you need to call your doctor or call a crisis line or go to the ER.