Hey Webgojj~

Wow!...Thanks so much for your insight and responding to my posting.
First- it feels great to me that others can relate to what I say and understand my feelings.

Regarding therapists....I had a few for various issues (my panic attacks/ addictive behavior / and my issues presented here.
What I think I have unraveled over the many years of soul searching is that my childhood played a HUGE part in my self acceptance in sexuality.

I was raised in the strict Catholic family AND in Catholic school. My mother was loving but STRICT....I was deeply afraid of upsetting her. I also had those NUNS to deal with.
As you can imagine...sexuality was NOT an open topic to discuss as a child.

I believe that I developed a feeling that women felt male sexuality was disgusting and I, being male was naturally included in this view.

So- I guess that when this is brought up in a PUBLIC setting, I feel exposed and attacked and I have No way to emotionally defend myself.