It was so saddening to read that and I wish I knew of something to say or do. I only know that no one deserves that kind of pain (and that I'd like to sock that office creep right in the mouth). Please listen to what others are saying and seek someone out for help immediately. I don't know you but I know that I don't want you hurt by your own hand or anyone else's. Please try to see your own immense fundamental worth as a human being and believe that there are people out there who care about you.