It's normal to be aroused by porn. Not everyone is, but that's what it's there to do. You shouldn't be ashamed. I'm not saying you should or shouldn't look at it again, but at least you've seen a tiny amount of it. Some people who judge porn (and those who enjoy it) have never seen it, and you can't judge something if you haven't seen it.

The term "porn" actually is used two different ways. Some use it to refer to all sexually explicit content (which I did above), while others go by its actual definition, which is offensive and obscene material. Of course, what one person considers offensive and obscene is different than what another does.

Some people think all sexually-related material is wrong. But it's ok to be aroused by it, even if you don't think you should be looking at it. Don't beat yourself up for a natural reaction; you have no control over how you react to sexual material. Maybe you don't like what you might consider exploitative material, even if it arouses you. If you feel a woman is being degraded, for instance, even though she likely consented to being portrayed in the way she is, then maybe you shouldn't look at that kind of sexual material.

But, maybe you'd be ok if the woman wasn't being degraded, and was being respected and loved, in your opinion. There's sexual content featuring romance, too. Most romance novels have some sexual content, and there are erotic romances that are quite popular now. Some might still offend you (some contain kinky material, or casual sex, but in an erotic romance, the main story is about romance and love), but there's something for almost everybody. There's also erotica, which may or may not contain romance (although if it does, in my opinion, it's either erotic romance--meaning, the main story is about love; or it's romantic erotica--meaning, the main story is about the sex). You can find erotic romance in the romance section of most bookstores, and erotica, of course, in the sex and erotica sections. You might try those.

Of course, those are books and stories...you can also search for such stories online, btw. But there are images and movies to enjoy, too. You might consider checking out PlaygirlTV.com (I'm not affiliated with them, so I'm not trying to spam), which has movies geared towards women...I rented a couple when we had Comcast OnDemand, and I liked them a lot. I'm not really that into porn geared more for men. Playgirl is more about women's fantasies. There is porn made by women, for women, too.

I don't know what to tell you concerning addiction to porn, and certainly, you want to avoid that, but perhaps romance and erotic romance is a better choice for you.