Have I replied to you before? I'm forgetting the thoughts, moments, it's just weird. and almost getting sacked incident might've triggered it. I'm feeling everything too much, man. And I'm enjoying that too much, I get this funny things to say, and I can never say **** like that to my boss,,he used the word 'mocking'. In my personal opinion, ppl takes what I say as mocking, NOT my problem. That's the result of my analysis of human behavior. And it is obvious that I'm no expert in that area. Btw, I don't know what you read about hikikomori, I'm slightly different case, an adult one, so, I confined myself in this room, totally alone, and being scared of everything, it'd be too much to say delusional, but I was ,,,thinking a lot of things out there, I'm past all that state, and I'm in a good place, man. I was feeling numb among many other feelings and so, I went back there yesterday morning during my crazy soul search, and found nothing there. This is way ,,umm,,easier to deal with than someone with say,,abuse of some kind. I am with the past self and it doesn't hurt me. Does anyone get this?