Sounds like you need some serious help with your OCD. What would you do if you were alone & didn't have a BF to depend on. Like this week....you are holding on with my BF will be home on Sunday.......what if you were all alone all the time????

I know that the problems I have had made it hard for me to function, especially when my husband was away & I remember thinking how great it will be when he gets home. I was depending on him for everything (sounds familiar????).

I know that now I don't have him around to depend on, I just have to do things & deal with my problems on my own. The more I depend on someone, the more I found I was catering to the issues I was having because I could depend on someone always being there to take care of everything. The more I learn how to take care of every different situation, the more confidence I have in how to handle things.....the more I know how to take care of situations, the less stress I have & the less I focus on the little things that were keeping me from doing things. They just have to be done & I have to do them no matter what.

It is easy to not do things when we have a reason not to.......but it is also important to know that you can handle your own life. The other person is not going to be there for us all the time, whether it is only until next Sunday, or for the rest of our lives. We never know what tomorrow will bring, & I know that the more pressure I put on the other person to take complete care of me, the more they are going to resent me in the long run & probably leave at some point in time when they get enough.

I know for me, until I had to take care of everything on my own, I didn't realize how empowering being self sufficient could be & that feeling definitely made everything else better.

I hope you can learn how to control your thinking to the point where your thinking quits controlling you....I know that OCD is a difficult condition & not easily overcome. I know that I needed help to get through my problems, but it also took determination on my part to stop letting those things control me. In other words, outside help is needed, but you also have to want the change before anything can happen for a change to occur.

I hope you get help with your OCD before it drives your BF away.....that may be why he procrastinates.....he may be just tired of doing everything (just something to think about)
Debbie