Therapy has never worked for me, in fact it usually makes me worse, so I understand your point of view. Maybe it's just because none of the therapists I ever had when I was younger bothered to try and act like they cared. It's hard enough talking about what's bothering you, let alone trying to talk about it with people who make you feel like everything you say is wrong. I know that therapy does work for a lot of people, but I'm just not one of them... I think I'm too far outside the box of "normal" for therapists to be able to understand me at all, let alone see that my idea of "good" is far different than theirs. I'm lucky to have a couple close friends, and my fiance who I can vent to if something is really bothering me and I need to get it out, but other than that I avoid talking about my feelings...

I was on the wrong medications most of my life, so I understand that issue too. Right now I'm on Abilify and it's the only thing that I've ever taken that makes me feel normal. If you're having issues as bad as it sounds like you are, I would try to switch medications. It might take a while to find the right one, but as long as you're trying to find a good one rather than sticking with something that clearly doesn't work, it'll be worth it. There are a lot of options out there, probably more than your doc has made you aware of.