I mostly depend on my boyfriend because I can't afford a car and whatnot. Even though we no longer live in an apartment, he requires that I pay him the same amount of rent as in the apartment ($680), because he says he can't afford the house payments if I don't. If it were my own place, with the things I need, and me in control, I'd be ok.

It isn't that I don't know how to do most things, it's that I go through hell when I do. I don't have enough Clorox Wipes and other supplies, and no way to get more, if I let myself get dirty over and over. Additionally, that is way too stressful.

I don't put pressure on my bf to take care of me, with a few exceptions. He goes to work, and when he comes home, he goes on his computer. I cook. He isn't doing things for me in general. Once a week (sometimes less often), he takes me out for a day. I'm also the one who will be cleaning the house, when we get supplies, just like at the apartment. I take care of his bird, because he didn't keep the cage clean at the apartment, so I got him to get his bird a new cage (and a bigger one), and I'm the one who cleans it. I do a lot of things, even though it's hard on my OCD. I don't need more.

I'm trying to get him to take me to get the vitamins and fish oil I want (and the fish oil was recommended by the resident my shrink had me see), because it's supposed to help with the thoughts. I've seen psychologists, psychiatrists, counselors and even a hypnotist since I was a kid. I have been on one or more meds for 29 years.

My boyfriend hates my OCD (and I hate it more), but he likes that I'm here to take care of the things that he doesn't. He also wants the money I give him, or he can't afford his house. I want to be better and out of this relationship. He and I both want out of it, but we're together for convenience. I've told him flat out, if he wants me to go, tell me, and I'll go. My OCD has nothing to do with him procrastinating renting videos, buying vitamins, cleaning his bird's cage (at the apartment, I mean--he'd let it go for many months), etc.