{{{{Inny}}}} - no reason to be ashamed or embarrassed. I've been watching your posts and notice that you have a very low opinion of yourself (as most of us do or did at one time). I think that your feelings may be there for other reasons as well. Almost like ANYTHING you do porno or otherwise would make you feel this way.

Hopefully if you work out your self-esteem issues in therapy, alot of these shoulda's, coulda's, and shame issues will resolve.

You are normal - nothing wrong with being turned on by some porn!

Tranquility