i guess i thought i was doing good. i dont want to fool you guys or put up a cover. i also want to be myself around you guys.

when i say im having trouble here i want to be taken seriously and not have it brushed over like itll just go away because ive been doing well IN GENERAL. its true ive been doing good IN GENERAL. overall. overall is the key word. its just right now i guess im having some troubles.

my sleep has been sparse.
i havent been able to tell the dream world from reality lately.
BUT i told my therapist that its NOT all about medications. she agreed. but noted ive been complaining about my sleep for a month.

im going to up my haldol dosage. by 5mg. but not yet. not until after i see the psychiatrist probably idk. unless you guys have some advice for me. im taking 10mg right now. supposed to be taking 20mg but my therapist did some research and said the combo of meds im on slows down my central nervous system. which is probably why i was on the wellbutrin because i was feeling lethargic. because im not depressed at all.

i feel like i tell her too much possibly.
possibly have too much trust in her.