Sorry you are feeling weighed down by the moment and that you feel like you can't make friends. I find that by taking an active interest in others and what they are going through, I feel less anxiety about my own situation. It is like a mini vacation putting my troubles on hold and reading and replying to someone else's post.

I also meet more people in the moderated chats (Anxiety 8PM EST Weds, Depression 9PM EST Thursday Bipolar 9PM EST Saturday).

Another thing I have found is the people most open to hearing about my state of mind are right here on Psych Central. I am friends with many people now, but when I came here there was no one. So it starts with the first friend. That is a beginning.

I have struggled with self esteem all my life. Here is an article on Psych Central that talks about building self esteem. Building Self-Esteem | Psych Central

You can also be an active member in other ways like supporting others in their questions, reading articles and posts http://forums.psychcentral.com that are applicable to your area of concern.

Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.