((((Inny))))

Poor Inny. Don't beat yourself up, this is nothing to be ashamed of. You're aroused by sexual material because you're human, and humans like sex! It's natural!!! It's designed to cause sexual arousal and very likely would even for many people who are opposed to it. Actually I think most of those opposed are opposed to it because they feel it degrades the participants. I haven't heard that many people shouting that they're opposed to pornography because it's not arousing (though it's true that many prefer material that they consider less vulgar). If you feel ashamed looking at porn but like the arousal, then look for some of the erotic material that Maven suggested.

Don't punish yourself for natural physical reactions. Everyone likes feeling turned on. I occasionally read sexually explicit stories (always preferred stories to pictures). I try to stick with ones where the content doesn't make me ashamed. By that I mean that I know I can become aroused by some things that I'd rather not be aroused by. So I just avoid those and go with things I don't mind being aroused by. Human sexuality is bizarre and sometimes being ashamed of a particular desire actually enhances it. So you just have to look around and find what you're comfortable with.

But anyway, don't beat yourself up. Experiencing lust is not shameful. You didn't do anything wrong.

Sidony