I hate myself. I hate that I can't do anything social because I get too paranoid and scared. I have more online friends than in real life. My boyfriend wanted to go hang out with one of our mutual friends but I couldn't. I feel horrible. Now he wants to go to the movies and my anxiety is through the roof. I'm trying so hard not to cry but I feel so bad because he always wants to be social and I'm the complete opposite. I like to be alone. I only have 2 people that I'll willingly hang out with. My best friend and my boyfriend.

I hate my life. I'm tired of all of this. I'm so scared of the future.

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