I'm planning on sending this back I don't want to lose her so can you see if this is Ok....

Right Ok I have been nice. I've apologised. I listened and I've acknowledged what you said. I've taken responsibility for my actions and have taken steps to rectify them. I still want to be your friend cus I love you, but I do feel I need to get my point across. Fistly I need to make sure you know this isn't guilt it facts and my opinions. I have not followed you (not intentionally) job 1 I didn't know you when I applied. Job 2 wilkos you said it yourself you got me the job. Job 3 nine group you told me there were vacancies, if you didn't want me to go for it you should have said there wasn't any. Better yet tell me you don't want me to I would have respected that. Would I have stayed at wilkos? No g***** lost his job and the job he has now is four weeks long. If you had worked there your whole life I would have left eventually I don't like living where I'm not safe. Not affording to see my family. So no I wouldn't. Can i hold down a full time job? Probably not (unintentional guilt alert) but a lot of my stress is from lack of money, in a ideal world a full time job would solve my problems. I mean living of pasta flavoured by an oxo cube is hardly the food of the rich. I don't want another food package from the salvation army. I want to be able to give them one. But I'm not ready for a full time job, I will be though. Depression doesn't go away over night it takes years. I'm not going to tell you my problems as I don't want to talk about myself, but the things I have mentioned are just scratching the surface. I'm sorry I didn't ask how your day was but I didn't actually know until I.saw it on Facebook
I meant what I said though about being proud ( did you get that text??) Ok so the last few months not so good. (sorry doing it again) I never meant to make you feel guilty. I know you think i did but that's your opinion. Can i ask why do you think that? Why do you think i would need to? As you have made it clear I won't be contuing my application with nine group. The thing about following you as got to me. I don't understand why I would. I've been applying for months. Do you think if I had a nice office job I would leave to join you at wilkos? What if a got that job at areas? Or at lister communications? ( the one I had an interview for two days before wilkos) please!! Sorry for all the texts I was worried and I have been ill lately ( sorry me,me,me right?) I want to be friends so let me know. If not then I genuinely wish you every success in your new job and you won't hear for me again.....