Thank you all again for taking the time to read this thread. While each of us is different. Please remember, what works for one person may not work for another. Yes, my issues cause me a lot of problems in my life, however I do the best I can do within' my ability to function in today's society.
No, i don't see a therapist, or take any medication. And, before you go on to say it works for you and that I should seek professional help. I, on the other hand, have been in and out of the so called Professional's offices. I have helped myself far more then any Professional ever has.
Sure, the way my life is, or the way I live it may not be ideal for most people. Yet, it works for me for the most part. Yet, with anything in this life, there is always draw backs to everything we do, or don't do.
That being said, the few draw backs i deal with/ face. One, isolation. Due to how I live my life I don't get out much. I'm suffer from Agoraphobia (among other things) I spend an unreal amount of time isolated and alone within' these four walls I call my home.
And two, not being able to handle much, if any, human interaction without being triggered in one way or another. Along with my Agoraphobia I also have Complex-PTSD. While I never served in the Armed Forces or seen combat. My life has been less then ideal since I was very young
From time to time I often think back to my childhood and all the boyfriends (or whatever they were) my mother had as I was growing up. One of them I had pleasant memories of. I attempted to find him on Facebook awhile back. Found his sister first and asked if she remembered me.
In fact, she did and went as far as to say. To be honest, I didn't think you would survive your childhood and live to be an adult. Which had a profound impact on me reading those words. Gave me a since that my life growing up as a child was far worse then I thought it was. Which is why I have the PTSD.
We all have a story to tell about our lives however, so I wont bore with mine. I just wanted to give you all some perspective is all. Not to mention, no medication (regardless of what it is) will work 100% of the time. I have done a lot of research on medication in the past, and Id rather do what works for me other then what does not. I've been on med's in the past and nothing as worked thus far.
What bothers me is the overwhelming loneliness I get wrapped up in at times from having to live my life like this. Anyways, enough of my bantering. Again, thank you all for reading and comments. Hope you all have, or had a wonderful day