On Monday I posted about a great session I had where my Therapist and I decided to reduce my sessions to once every two weeks instead of every week like for the past 2 1/2 years. On Monday I felt really good about this and felt like I was ready for the change. Today I am feeling sad and having second thoughts in my heart. I know I am ready to space my sessions out but my heart is very sad in that this change represents the beginning of the end of a relationship that I charish so much. I can not stand the thoughts of loosing my therapist but I know that evantually I will and I'm scared of how I am going to deal with it. I don't know if I can face such a loss but I know that one day I will. I wish we could be friends forever but I know that is not the way and that someday I will have to face this loss no matter how much my heart protests. I know termination is a ways off yet but I can't help but think about it. This is a person I love so much has who has been so significant in my life and I don't know what I will do without him one day. I'm just feeling heart pain today and trying to separate wants from needs. Any help in this area would be greatly appreciated because I am feeling sad and alone today.