I remember way back in the beginning when I was a tot about getting yelled at face to face and beat, I remember being blanked out and then I'd quickly emerge with a hand on me shaking me, hearing screaming at me asking "are you stupid? Is there something wrong with you? Do you have a split personality? Why won't you ever learn?" I'd be sore, trembling, fearful, crying hard. Out of fear I'd say "no" to something that I have no or a vague idea of doing.

I wonder if this is training to immediate switching today, instead of dazing off and coming to later. Since switching is quick, I'm conscience of the next one up, to then fade away.

Sounds plausible at least. I don't know.

Experiences?