I found the courage to talk to my sister about my crush on my co-worker/friend. She was great and offered some good advice and thoughts. The first being that she agreed that my friend likes the flirting but is not at the same place as I am in her head. Meaning, she is having fun and I am having fun but want more. The 2nd thing she said was to remember that she's married and I don't want to mess with someone's marriage because morally it's not right. I told her that I have never had issues with that though I knew I should. After talking to her and remembering my therapist said, "She's married" a couple times, I think I am going to try to adjust my morals about that in the right way. I mean, if I am trying to better myself and raise more positive energy in my life then that is something I should do. Sigh... I know it will be less painful and less frustrating for me in the long run too.

I asked my sister if she thinks I'm weird now for having a crush on a woman and she laughed and said, "No more weird than I already thought you were."