I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning, and I was thinking about asking if we could pump on the breaks a little bit with this clonazepam taper. I'm down to 2mg right now (was at 4, so I'm at the halfway mark), and I noticed that I have really bad rebound anxiety every other day, and I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping. Last night my rebound anxiety was so bad it turned into a paranoia attack, and I was shaking, heart pounding, terrified of everything, some recurrent psychosis symptoms, every sound made me jump, and I think I was on the verge of having a panic attack.

I ended up taking 50mg of seroquel just to calm myself down (I know. Bad. I'm not supposed to be on it anymore, and I hate it besides). I thought I was losing my mind. It helped. I had a great night of sleep. Apparently I don't know how to sleep anymore without being knocked out by seroquel.

Anyway, so tomorrow I have to ask this woman what we can do about this! I want to be off clonazepam, but I can't stand this rebound anxiety. I feel like I did BEFORE I was put on benzos, but one million times worse, and it was bad then.

If you are an anxious person, what do you take for it? (Besides a benzo, or vistaril/atarax.)

I think I've already asked this, but I just want to go in with some ideas. This pdoc is so intense. I want to have some suggestions.

She wants to take me off lamictal and put me on depakote, and at this moment in time I don't think I can handle weaning off of clonazepam AND lamictal at the same time, never mind the fact I don't want to be on depakote. Lamictal tapering is no picnic. I know. I've done it before.

This just sucks. Just boo hoo.