Dear T

I'm not looking forward to today's session. I never do anymore. I don't want to talk. It cost me so much energy and I'm so tired. I don't know what to talk about. Yes, there are actually several topics I should discus with you, but I'm so dreading that. And it's only 2 sessions until your vacation. I feel like I should wait until after your vacation. I'm not sure why. Maybe because it's feel like 2 sessions is too short to discus or the wait until I'll see you again is too long to discus it now.
I wish I didn't need therapy.
I envy you so much. It hurts me.