Right? As if regular people were not disappointing enough (friends and family have been shocked at my blase response when someone lets me down in a predictable way... it's like, have you met people? they almost never do what they say they're going to do)... you'd think someone who actually chooses to go into a profession where you've taken some approximation of the Hippocratic oath would be even a little bit better. I have had my own referral stupidity in the past. To be fair, I've also had other Ts make good referrals in a timely fashion. But the referral fail I went through came at one of the worst times possible, from someone I had come to trust very deeply. It's more wrenching than it feels like it needs to be. Something about it being a sort of deeply personal betrayal, PLUS being a professional fail... I don't know, for some reason that really got to me even more.

I have been away awhile and was trying to catch up a bit and saw some of the s hit you have been going through. And I am really sorry. Sorry for what has happened, but maybe even more so for the lack of support you've been getting IRL. I have to say I was pretty cheesed off with your T's response to one event in particular. And now this.

No advice really. Just sympathy, empathy, and agreeing that you deserve better. I hope things start looking up for you.