Another thing/ Q: I am really spending a $hit load on T and Pdoc. T is especially expensive, wants to see me each week i pay out of pocket 100/visit. My Pdoc is 140/visit. So that is about 500/mo on these people.

Pdoc seemed to pick up on things (PTSD) that my T missed. Pdoc told me to work on trauma etc with T. T is kind of good, but also kind of $ hungry. The last few visits started BS'ing about life, how good things are... avoiding the hard stuff (that same thing happened w/ a prior T). Pdoc is also questioning why she does/says certain things. She is growing her business, I suspect she is milking me!! Pdoc says that T should know better in a way- b/c being financially stressed is not going to help me. I feel like ditching T right now. She is starting a yoga studio now, and pushing me into that and wants me to bring people. It seems obvious, and she is always booking out like 5 appts worth into the future. Does anyone else see red flags here??

She is good, pre-diag BP... i am grateful to her for her help- but also dont trust her completely! She wanted my mom, sister, friend all to come in. I think just to grow her business. She is sneaky----- I am going to talk to Pdoc, but do i really need both?? Can't i just have 1?? And need to decrease my spending (actually this conversation is what triggered my BF and my blowout this morning).... Grrrr vicious cycle