Dear T

You were late again. So it was only 4 minutes. I saw the client before me leave your room at my time. This time I didn't got angy (though I dispice that girl before me), but I felt sad. Not important. Less than others.
You did went about 4 minutes over my endtime. But with the girl before me you went 15 minutes over time. Why? And I was so good to come an hour later because you double-booked that time.

I didn't told you, again. You saw or notice at my lack of talking, that I wasn't so well. We got to talk about the sessions, about that I'm afraid you think I'm annoying, about that I think you like your other clients more than me.
We talked about that. But there are some more reasons why I dread our sessions. Those I didn't tell you.
You asked if you can do or say something that would make me trust you more. I said there wasn't really anything, that it's more me and how I think. In my head I though: you can say that you like me, than you like seeing me, that I'm your favorite client.
I'm still not relieved. You didn't actually said that you don't find me annoying. You said ''I can say I don't think you're annoying but you wouldn't believe that''. Which is probably true, I would still doub. But it would be nice to hear.

You said you would see me next week and then 2 weeks not. You said that I could do 2 weeks without you. I said yes, but I thought no. I probably could, but I don't want to. Even though at the moment I don't like going to therapy, I do want/like to have a session every week.

After this whole talking, I still have doubts. How can you not dislike me?