I actually don't bully others. I used to, many years ago. I was someone who grew up to be a bully in my early 20s. I read somewhere that those who've been powerless like that grow up to believe they must overpower others in order to get by in life. And I was very insecure back then, and filled with hurt and anger.

The reason why I wrote that first post was because I was in this rage at myself. I had hurt someone because of my envy (ok, that's bullying there) and I didn't want to admit it, though I felt terrible about it. It doesn't happen often but when I feel totally guilty and hate myself, I go into this rage like I'm so ashamed that I can't handle it. I think overall I am a good, nice person but I tend to fly off the handles and turn into this monster due to stress or shame. I don't know if it because of being bipolar or I have emotional problems. Either way, I'm not proud of it. Maybe I am just too hard on myself

BTW, I'm sorry if I offended anyone with my opening post. I was not functioning well when I wrote that.

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