Sometimes when things happen, trauma for example, we tend to suppress it. There is neuro-recepters in the brain that help protect us in these situations. If a child or someone suffers extreme trauma, it acts as a cushion to take the fall. We store it in our subconscious and are able to shake it off. For a little while!!!! Operative word......for a little while. Then one day something will trigger our memory load and cause us to relive that moment we had been trying for "forget", so to speak. Even to the point of WHO did what.
When you have found a therapist you feel comfortabe with and can open up, it will come to you like a bolt of lightning!!! You will be able to process all of it and finally begin to heal. But don't expect MIRACLES. It doesn't happen that quickly. This is over a long period of time. Give yourself that time. It will all come back to you. You will understand alot more about yourself when that takes place.
Be patient. Don't take the cake out of the oven before it's done........it will be too soft in the center........it will happen....
IF YOU WANT IT TO!!!