Thank you all for your wonderful advice. I have decided to take a step back to re-evaluate the relationship and my happiness. I cant go on in this type of pain. I long to be happy and loved but this relatioship isnt bringing me neither of those.

TUCKER: He wasnt at war; he just wants to play with his friends over spending time with his gf who has been alone doing nothing but counting the days until he return, day in and day out. He is 28 yrs old and all he can think aout is hanging with his friends, taking trips with his friends, visiting his friends...but with me its MAYBE go to a movie and back to my apt and thats it (b/c its a work night and i work early). On the weekend (when i can stay up late) i ask do he want to take a 3 hr ride to the beach and stay the night he tells me he doesnt feel like it...but when his friends ask a week later to go to a beach 16hrs away he jumps on it ans start planning right away...it's not fair. Honestly, sometimes i have to question is he is gay.