Dear (ex?)T,
I didn't make it. Today I went to my gp begging for help and she gave me my first (tons of) antidepressants. I tried to do without. I'm sorry, I know you were strongly against it for me but I've wanted to kill myself. I told you I felt I couldn't make it on my own this time but you didn't believe me. It's not too bad I'm not seeing you, I would have trouble explaining, Well I hope I'll get some help now and see the sun again.