i've never had psychosis.... voices or hallucinations...
when i first went i had an evaluation test with a therapist, it was about 45 minutes long (boy was i shaky after!)
then i had a good first meeting with my pdoc (i thought it was a good first meeting)
i explained my problems, insomnia, anxiety, and at that time irritability (i think i was irritable because of sensory overload)
so i guess with this first evaluation with the therapist (who knows what that test said i was) and the meeting with the pdoc, they said i had bipolar I....
maybe i wouldnt be so skewed if it was bipolar II, but no...

my therapist later talked to me about PTSD, social phobia, panic disorder, and possible adhd... i dont know if my pdoc consulted with my therapist (although my therapist said she would consult with him for me)

it seems that my pdoc is not ok with being wrong about a diagnosis... i dont know how to tell him that i think the diagnosis is wrong and that i think its X Y and Z that are the culprits

i plan on seeing a psychologist for an official ADHD evaluation, in which im also going to ask if he can give me a full evaluation or atleast scan me for bipolar for a second opinion... i think he will do this because he specializes in mental illness, bipolar and adhd...

he is a psychologist though so he can't prescribe medication right?
it is at a hospital center though and i read on the website that you can pick up medications there?

im sorry im all over the place right now...

i am not sure if i can see my pdoc again, i stopped another medication (zyprexa) and he wasnt happy about all the other meds that i have stopped on my own (see signature)
but the only thing zyprexa was doing was helping my severe anxiety... i just dont feel right taking an AP for anxiety...

im still on the seroquel and i dont feel like im cycling or anything close to BP...

once i was convinced i was having a mixed episode(which i did go to the hospital for), but looking back on it i think it was just anxiety coupled with depression...
i went to the hospital and they put me on perphenazine, depakote, and 200 mg extra seroquel during the day, when i was released probably was the closest i have ever felt to being manic... but i wasn't manic, i was just doped up...

it wasn't long after i was released i stopped taking the perphenazine and the depakote, i stopped the cymbalta and the proponalol...

i suffer from severe anxiety and depression.. ADHD... not mood swings

does any of my rambling nonsense, make sense?
thanks for reading, im just really confused...