i was convinced i had a mixed episode once, i just dont know though... im so full of doubt, i think they convinced me of a misdiagnosis because i was in a really bad place when i sought out help

i was put on SSRIs first from my GPs... they didnt help the depression (they may of helped the anxiety but if its not the anxiety over taking me its the depression..)
it didn't trigger mania though, nothing changed...