I've been seeing a counselor for awhile as talked about in previous posts I've had. For awhile I mean I've seen her a total of 6 times I believe? The last few we have talked about medication. She was the one who suggested it. I don't like my primary doctor so am trying to get into someone who works with him. However, now I'm starting to think I don't need medication..perhaps it's all in my head. I have done this to myself. I'm thinking it's in my head..Maybe everything I told her isn't true, or maybe it's elaborated. Made into something it's not..I'm fine. I am, now I just don't know what to do. I really don't want to go back and see her, but I know I will. I think I'm fine.

I think I should add more to that. Last night I was ready to kill myself. I'm not going to go into detail, but I was hysterical. This morning I knew I was acting strange, and I couldn't control it and it was making me really upset that I couldn't. Now I feel completely fine. I just really think maybe she doesn't understand? I don't know.

Now being 3 hours later. I realize that I'm not as okay as I thought. I'm now unhappy again, full of worry and fear again. Angry again. It was just another mood swing, it just wasn't as quick changing as usual. I was fine and content for a couple hour..now I'm back to normal.