Since my last "big" dissociative event I've been dissecting it and trying to find out more about it. It seems that when dissociating , for me, a lot of push a pull going on in my head, that there's seems to be an imbalance that keeps me there. So maybe finding that balance will keep me from going there. Having these events around the T has brought up different issues than having them alone. Having them alone they just ran their course, I was usually at home in a safe environment without interruption. So when the T tries to guide me back, sometimes my head fights that, but why? When she was trying a grounding exercise before I left the office, we went through the motions though it didn't help, other than make me a little angry, again....why? Any thoughts on this?