Hello Crook. I am so sorry that you are feeling low at the moment and yes, family can be one of the many triggers. Maybe you will feel different when you get there, sometimes it is the thought of doing something and not the action itself. I was having a meltdown yesterday about going out to dinner, but it was not that bad after all. Sometimes we can over anyalise a situation. Don't get me wrong I am not making light of your feelings... but when you have kids you have to push through your own feelings... wont it be worth it to see the kids enjoying themselves.. Best wishes