Thankyou everyone. I did rephrase a lot of the stuff to be honest I think she has moved on. That's Ok I hope she does well. And is happy. And I will probably still be there when she needs me cus I can't stand to see others in pain. I've decided it's best to find support from people who are trained and paid to do so. Then I won't feel as much of a burden. If she still wants to be friends then I won't say no. But I plan on when I'm in a better place to make new friends. And maybe one day we can get back to how we were. I do understand where she is coming from. I have been very clingy and hard to be around I bring people down. I'm in two minds.about how I should go forward do i paint a smile on my face and pretend everything is perfect in front of her. Or do i think we'll neither of us have been very supportive. Perhaps we could be. I don't know but I will wait for her to approach me. And I won't be trying to make new friends until I have dealt with my issues professionally.